The last few days have felt like the scene from the Wizard of Oz where Dorothy’s house is being whisked away to OZ…coming out of the last few days has kind of felt like technicolor too.
I feel like my body and soul have gone through a factory reset. Not just a hard reset, but a factory one, where everything is wiped clean and you get to start from scratch. My daily happenings have not changed, but how I am learning to cope and deal with them has and it is only getting better each day.
I attribute this to self-care. I finally realized after all of these years that sometimes you have to do what is best for you, so that you can turn around and help others and without really buckling down and focusing and trying to not let the “little” things bother me, I don’t think I would have been able to do the video I did today.
I have mentioned previously that I have been on a long journey of self-discovery. I wasn’t “lost” but, as it turns out, my “self” needed a lot of work and to learn self-love and not be such a people pleaser. Don’t get me wrong I love doing things for people, there is nothing more exciting than seeing someone happy or surprised, but my self-love was based on other’s happiness and not my own. I didn’t know how to be happy without someone else being happy.
I do realize everyone’s journey is different, but this was mine and sometimes we get so wrapped up in life, or work, or trying to be this or that, that we forget to stop, take a deep breath and let ourselves wind down. I had to learn that lesson the hard way this week. I got so wound up, my anxiety exploded like that mind blowing emoji. It wasn’t pretty and left me shame-faced, especially since anxiety is new to me and I am still trying to figure it out.
So…take care of you, and remember, self-care is NOT selfish, it’s necessary…I need to remember this as well.